Privilege

 

Old now, getting very old.


Yeah. Privilege. Like any of you would know what that means.

Yeah, he was the one everyone wanted to 
be. I was the only one left when he died.


All those Hine weddings. When glamor isjust sad…


Painting by Alex Lee. Still have it. You have 5K?
I missed the ‘52 war. Not the ‘60 war over Nixon.


Aren’t you something?


Real life…


When you hear me laugh, that’s Boppa. His laugh.


When I lost my fear and acquired sociopaths as friends.


Yeah. Korean doctor. Hospital ship. Told me I was brave.
Guess I skipped the part about how he stitched my face.









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